I hate the week. never mind why i dun even know why i hate it in the first place.

This loneliness and stuff. Like ok fine since when wasnt I lonely and stuff. Yea i do admit it sucks to be me and I really do hate myself. Why? I also dunno why. Yes i am happy with my friends like Nik(baka chan who doesnt have time for me until O School Recital is over and i do owe him money). Rachel ANN Thexeira(another baka chan who understands me). Cherelle Kong(my future SL maybe? but i always kena when Farhanna and Rachel tries to make me "mastermind"). Vanessa(cause she is the online and FAR FAR away from this part of the island). Whatever luh.

Just hate the week. Kept questioning myself. Why am I a leader? Why is there always good and bad? Why do people need to eat 2-3 meals a day? Why do we always do the wrong things? Why am I so stupid? Why dun i understand? Why is everything my fault? Why must I always do or get blamed for? Why? Why? Why? So many question yet so little answers. I dun even know how to solve it myself Why?

Band investiture is coming. I am worried why isnt anybody else worried? Do they even know how badly done last year investiture was done? Does anyone see the point? I wonder if we should even have one at times. I just wanna go back for band, play my instrument, train on the mace again, just have fun at times. But there is a break now. No wonder my life feels so empty, there isnt band.

Arr i hate it i hate it. I always get blamed for always getting sarcastic indirect scoldings, like thnks! Like i even wanted it at all. Yea I always try my best but I always get wrong responds to it half of the time.

Why is life like that? Freaking economic crisis making people edgy and money conscience. i wonder if anybody understand man. Arrrrrrr!



ALEXSTER ...
Beginnings of all Troubles.